Finding My Passion Again

// I used to call myself “The Artist” but even though I was trying my best, I wasn’t as good as I thought I needed to be. I was comparing myself to other people and I wasn’t even close to their skill level. I was getting frustrated that anything I did wasn’t perfect and no matter how long I tried I wasn’t happy with the things I was creating. It felt like I was lying to myself, to other people, pretending to be a great artist and I was tired of it. After three years (2013-2016) of this I thought I would try to be media professional, video production, graphic design, web design, etc. but as it turns out while I like to do these things and have had some training, I am not in a position to pursue it. So another three years (2017-2020) go by trying to go this route, I finally decided to just give up on that dream. Here I was, not an artist anymore, no longer trying to be a multimedia professional, searching for something to do for creative fulfillment.

On January 17th, 2021, I kind of felt like painting and thought to myself, “why don’t I, I still have all my paint.” Soon I was gathering my supplies and setting up for my first creation in a long time. “Imperfections Fire Passion” was that peice and it was also a symbol of my renewed passion about creating. Although I still wouldn’t call myself an artist, through this new website I hope to express myself, now and in the future.